Life is tough for a child experiencing adult emotions, finding new things out about themselves and wondering if what they're feeling is right or wrong.
Everyone can relate to that.
My sexual awakenings were not thunderbolts, not riotous explosions, not orchestral crescendos, nor were there fireworks and rockets. It just crept up on me, bit by bit.
I remember having erections, staring at it, wondering what was going on, feeling uncomfortable. It looked weird.
Then something strange happened. I saw Limahl (aka Chris Hamill), the lead singer of Kajagoogoo on Top Of The Pops. He had a beautiful voice, a lovely smile and was so utterly gorgeous. I fantasized about holding him and kissing him on the mouth. I got an erection. I remember quite vividly that this was the very moment when the penny dropped and I put two and two together. I knew why I was having erections. I knew it was to do with sex, but had no idea who did what, how, or to whom. The only thing I did know, though, was my feelings of sexiness involved men and men alone.
Trying to think about time, dates and all that now is quite difficult. It was more than twenty years ago, but some time later a boy in my school told me what masturbation actually was. Well, he did more than tell me, he showed me. I imagined he was Limahl. It was all over in a number of seconds.
I'm not ashamed of any of this. It happened. It must happen that way for a lot of teenagers. I'm glad it happened to me in a happy and safe environment and that I was a willing party.
What is curious, though, is that in both crucial moments of my sexual development, Limahl was involved.
Limahl - I salute you and in honour of the large part (excuse the pun) you played in my life back in the 1980s, I offer, for seven days only or one hundred downloads (whichever comes first) Then Suddenly (Almighty Mix) by Limahl for download. If you like it, please check out The Best Of Limahl. You'll be glad you did, dear reader.